there is really no point to this other than it's hilarious.

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i feel like writing. and since no one reads this anymore, i figure what the hell.

i've been feeling rather lonely lately. i'm a very social person and need to have people around. work makes it difficult. now that i work entirely from home i'm stuck inside all day with no one around. and come 5pm all i want to do is get out of my apartment. that's part of the reason that i went back to school. though that is not a good outlet for making new friends. pretty much everyone in my classes are older than me and married with families and other obligations. so i started to playing soccer. and while i like the people i play soccer with, they are not really go out drinking or hang out outside of soccer kind of people. which is why i started playing volleyball. i do like my volleyball team. we haven't won a game yet but always go to the bar. i seem to have trouble making new friends. i'm not sure what the issue is really. just wish i had some insight into that.

in addition to the lack of friends, i can't find a guy that i'm interested in. or the guys i find that i'm interested in aren't interested in me. makes me want to give up on men and become the crazy cat lady. i really miss what i had with matty. i haven't found anyone quite like him. it's lonely nights like this where i just wish i was lying in bed cuddling with me. his big strong arms wrapped around me.

it all goes back to belongingness theory. everything goes back to psychology.