urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chokexonxregret chokexonxregret chokexonxregret 2008-07-01T22:41:36Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chokexonxregret:18687 2008-07-01T22:41:36Z 2008-07-01T22:41:36Z <a name="cutid1"></a><br />Amanda: hey trouble<br />Dan Remolde: yo yo <br />Dan Remolde: sup<br />Amanda: nothing<br />Amanda: slow day today<br />Dan Remolde: super<br />Amanda: yeah same on my end<br />Dan Remolde: I've been just so beat lately<br />Amanda: that sucks<br />Dan Remolde: I think I'm going to bypass on that indoor soccer<br />Dan Remolde: sorry<br />Dan Remolde: pass<br />Amanda: oh yeah?<br />Dan Remolde: I keep fucking up my hips<br />Amanda: even when you don't play goal?<br />Dan Remolde: yeah at softball<br />Amanda: cause as of right now at least, we have another goalie<br />Amanda: come on, i know you like to play the field<br />Amanda: lol<br />Dan Remolde: when i slide it's like my hips go back to when I was playing goalie 3+ games a week<br />Dan Remolde: if I was someone normal I might think it hurt so much something broke<br />Dan Remolde: lol<br />Amanda: haha<br />Amanda: sounds like you need to stop sliding<br />Dan Remolde: yeah I really try not to<br />Dan Remolde: but our team is really good and I only slide when we need a huge play<br />Dan Remolde: so I'm probably going to get a long sleve shirt and slide head first from now on<br />Dan Remolde: lol<br />Amanda: hahaha<br />Amanda: until you hurt your head and shoulders<br />Dan Remolde: only problem there is if I slide wrong and go into the bag wrong I can easily break a finger, wrist or bang my chin on the ground<br />Amanda: you're gonna start falling apart in your old age<br />Dan Remolde: I don't care about cuts<br />Dan Remolde: probably<br />Dan Remolde: wish I was a little nicer to my body<br />Amanda: i think you'd fair a lot better if kept yourself off the ground<br />Dan Remolde: yeah, my problem is I play hard<br />Dan Remolde: and go all out every time even though it's just for fun<br />Dan Remolde: if I slack off it's not fun for me<br />Amanda: so you'd rather just pussy out?<br />Amanda: booo<br />Dan Remolde: well I'm going to be doing the softball fall league too<br />Dan Remolde: and that's two times a week<br />Dan Remolde: so I wanna be as healed as possible for winter<br />Amanda: still, pussy<br />Dan Remolde: you just like saying the word pussy<br />Amanda: yep<br />Amanda: lol cock too<br />Dan Remolde: lol<br />Amanda: mmm cock<br />Amanda: lol<br />Amanda: man i need to get out of the house<br />Dan Remolde: why's that?<br />Amanda: just feeling antsy<br />Amanda: i already went to the gym today<br />Amanda: i'm not sure what i want to do with my free night<br />Dan Remolde: don't you have one of your dudes that can come over?<br />Dan Remolde: cause you sound like you wanna get fucked<br />Amanda: so far the two i've asked are busy tonight<br />Amanda: lol i always wanna get fucked<br />Dan Remolde: yep<br />Amanda: though i totally passed this weekend<br />Amanda: i could have had at least 3 different guys<br />Dan Remolde: why would you pass up sex<br />Dan Remolde: 3 new guys?<br />Amanda: cause i don't like fucking guys i just met<br />Amanda: or when i'm drunk<br />Amanda: my cousin had a party<br />Amanda: it ended up being a pretty crazy night<br />Amanda: at one point there were a bunch of us in the hot tub<br />Amanda: and i'm sitting between two guys and they are each feeling me up<br />Amanda: and i'm just trying not to let me the realize that the other guy is touching me too<br />Dan Remolde: where were they touching you?<br />Amanda: legs mostly<br />Amanda: but they each fingered me for a bit<br />Dan Remolde: sorry, lost my connection<br />Dan Remolde: where were they touching you?<br />Amanda: lol<br />Amanda: Amanda: legs mostly<br />Amanda: but they each fingered me for a bit<br />Dan Remolde: haha<br />Dan Remolde: and they both didn't realize the other one was doing the same thing?<br />Amanda: well while the one guy was fingering me i was holding the other guy's hand under the water<br />Amanda: lol i was trying to be all sly about everything<br />Dan Remolde: haha<br />Dan Remolde: did you cum?<br />Amanda: not in the hot tub<br />Dan Remolde: oh after that?<br />Amanda: yeah<br />Dan Remolde: from the third guy<br />Amanda: and before that with a different guy fingering me<br />Amanda: one of the guys from the hot tub ended up in the tent with me (and other people) later<br />Dan Remolde: so 4 guys fingered you<br />Amanda: he got me off there<br />Amanda: 3<br />Amanda: lol and i was a huge jerk<br />Dan Remolde: nice<br />Amanda: cause i didn't get any of them off<br />Dan Remolde: haha<br />Amanda: but i'll most likely never see any of those guys again<br />Amanda: so i don't really care<br />Dan Remolde: you sleezer<br />Dan Remolde: haha<br />Amanda: hahaha i know<br />Amanda: the guy i was fooling around with in the tent kept asking me to suck his cock<br />Amanda: i wouldn't<br />Dan Remolde: was he like<br />Dan Remolde: "please suck my cock"?<br />Dan Remolde: lol<br />Amanda: pretty much<br />Amanda: lol multiple times<br />Dan Remolde: haha<br />Dan Remolde: see I don't ask for anything<br />Dan Remolde: if it happens it happens<br />Amanda: that's a smart move<br />Dan Remolde: like the one chick I hooked up with at this girls place a while ago<br />Dan Remolde: she just basically wanted to get off<br />Dan Remolde: and I fingered her and she orgasmed<br />Dan Remolde: I was hoping to at least get a tug or a blow<br />Dan Remolde: but nothing<br />Dan Remolde: I didn't car though<br />Dan Remolde: just would have been nice<br />Amanda: i would have jerked him off<br />Amanda: but people kept looking in the back window of the tent<br />Dan Remolde: why didn't you just close the window?<br />Amanda: i had no idea how <br />Amanda: and i was rather drunk<br />Amanda: and didn't even think of it<br />Dan Remolde: see when I'm drunk usually don't care if anyone sees me<br />Dan Remolde: lol<br />Dan Remolde: actually even sober sometimes I don't care<br />Amanda: well it was like 6am and i think i was starting to sober up<br />Amanda: and i was exhusted<br />Amanda: we started drinking at like 3pm<br />Dan Remolde: in that situation I probably wouldn't have cared<br />Dan Remolde: lol<br />Amanda: haha<br />Amanda: well i cared<br />Dan Remolde: I would have been like fuck it I'm in a tent<br />Amanda: hahaha<br />Amanda: did i mention that i brough kat with me? and she was in the tent along with another guy<br />Amanda: but they weren't doing anything<br />Amanda: she was pissed<br />Dan Remolde: she was in the same tent?<br />Amanda: hahaha yeah<br />Dan Remolde: geeze<br />Dan Remolde: what was she pissed at?<br />Amanda: she had been trying to get with this one guy all night<br />Amanda: and he was just passed out next to her<br />Amanda: she got nothing<br />Dan Remolde: aww...<br />Dan Remolde: she doesn't seem like that kinda person<br />Amanda: like what?<br />Amanda: obviously she's less slutty than i am<br />Dan Remolde: lol, well she didn't get with 3 dudes that night<br />Dan Remolde: but she was still trying to get with someone<br />Dan Remolde: just struck out that's all<br />Amanda: yeah<br />Amanda: though i wasn't exactly trying to get with any of them<br />Amanda: it was more that i just let it happen<br />Dan Remolde: lol<br />Amanda: i was kinda trying to get with a guy<br />Amanda: but he was way too drunk<br />Amanda: in fact, he was so drunk that around the 6am mark he bum rushed the tent i was in and knocked it over<br />Amanda: while i was still in it<br />Dan Remolde: lol<br />Amanda: and i was too lazy to do anything about it<br />Amanda: so i slept in like all knocked over<br />Dan Remolde: so you and kat hang out a lot?<br />Amanda: not too much outside of soccer<br />Amanda: but she sounded like she needed something fun to do this weekend<br />Dan Remolde: ah<br />Amanda: and i figured she'd get along with my cousin <br />Amanda: so everything worked out well<br />Dan Remolde: I thought maybe you two hooked up or something<br />Amanda: me and kat???<br />Dan Remolde: yeah<br />Amanda: nah<br />Amanda: i'm not into girls<br />Dan Remolde: oh yeah<br />Dan Remolde: maybe she is and she didn't hook up with that guy because she was hoping to hook up with you<br />Amanda: haha<br />Amanda: somehow i doubt that<br />Dan Remolde: I don't know<br />Dan Remolde: she kinda seems like the type<br />Dan Remolde: not like there is anything wrong with that<br />Amanda: haha is this like your newest jerk off fantasy?<br />Dan Remolde: nah, not at all<br />Dan Remolde: I'm not even hard<br />Dan Remolde: I'd definatley do Kat<br />Dan Remolde: lol<br />Amanda: hahaha<br />Amanda: well go for it<br />Dan Remolde: ehh<br />Amanda: ehh?<br />Dan Remolde: I don't like putting effort into much<br />Dan Remolde: lol<br />Amanda: lol<br />Amanda: you'd get a lot more ass if you put half as much effort into girls as you do playing sports<br />Dan Remolde: I know<br />Dan Remolde: the thing is she's a really cool chick<br />Dan Remolde: and I woulnd't want her to think that maybe I wanted to date her<br />Amanda: yeah that would suck<br />Dan Remolde: I can already tell that she would like me like that<br />Dan Remolde: I could just tell when she would talk to me that she was attracted to me<br />Amanda: lol i love your ego<br />Dan Remolde: I really don't have much of one<br />Dan Remolde: I can just tell <br />Dan Remolde: <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=55436918">http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=55436918</a><br />Dan Remolde: oh yeah, you don't do myspace<br />Amanda: i see your butt<br />Dan Remolde: haha<br />Dan Remolde: damn<br />Dan Remolde: you went to the pictures really quick<br />Amanda: haha<br />Amanda: i was talking about your first pic<br />Amanda: upper left corner<br />Dan Remolde: ah <br />Dan Remolde: so how many people are playing on the 7 vs 7 so far?<br />Amanda: let me check, hold on<br />Dan Remolde: send me the link to the e-vite<br />Dan Remolde: I deleted the e-mail<br />Dan Remolde: but I responded<br />Amanda: 7 people said yes<br />Amanda: including you<br />Dan Remolde: anyone I know?<br />Amanda: you, me, kat, javier, angel<br />Amanda: i think eric said he'd play<br />Amanda: we also have steve, our current goalie<br />Amanda: and my friend chris<br />Dan Remolde: you're "friend"<br />Dan Remolde: lol<br />Amanda: haha <br />Amanda: i know him from aff<br />Amanda: but i'm not fucking him<br />Dan Remolde: is he good?<br />Dan Remolde: or does he suck<br />Amanda: i've never seen him play<br />Dan Remolde: maybe I will play <br />Amanda: you should<br />Dan Remolde: did you pay tom already?<br />Amanda: nope<br />Dan Remolde: well then what's going on with that?<br />Amanda: beats me<br />Dan Remolde: he was crying in the e-vite<br />Amanda: yeah he was<br />Amanda: i honestly have no idea<br />Amanda: lol well i managed to line up some ass for tomorrow night<br />Amanda: but none for tonight so far<br />Amanda: oh well<br />Dan Remolde: lol<br />Dan Remolde: so how do we know if we're going to be playing or not?<br />Amanda: wait for his email or check the schedule<br />Amanda: it doesn't start till next week anyway<br />Dan Remolde: well the thing is if I do play I don't want to pay for a season that we missed 2 or 3 games because he didn't organize shit<br />Amanda: they make sure all the teams end up with 7 games<br />Amanda: even if it means bye weeks and double headers<br />Amanda: but this week is the last week of playoffs<br />Dan Remolde: so it starts the following week?<br />Dan Remolde: or is there an off week<br />Amanda: i believe it starts the following week<br />Dan Remolde: shit, missing one game <br />Dan Remolde: lol<br />Dan Remolde: going to the john mayer concert next week<br />Amanda: i think we can manage without you for one game<br />Amanda: though we'll probably lose<br />Dan Remolde: I don't know about that<br />Dan Remolde: lol<br />Amanda: did you hear that there's no wed night league this session?<br />Dan Remolde: nah<br />Dan Remolde: I wasn't gonna play that anyway<br />Dan Remolde: to much for me<br />Dan Remolde: I'll play again when it's cold out<br />Amanda: monday night pick up is pretty fun<br />Dan Remolde: yeah it was cool<br />Dan Remolde: I'd rather play goalie if I played there<br />Dan Remolde: just because there are a lot of really good people<br />Amanda: yeah there are<br />Dan Remolde: I'm going to send tom a message<br />Dan Remolde: make sure he gets on collecting money and shit<br />Amanda: ok<br />Amanda: let me know what he says<br />Dan Remolde: will do<br />Amanda: thanks <br />Dan Remolde: if you see kat tell her I said what's up <br />Dan Remolde: <br />Dan Remolde: lol<br />Amanda: lol<br />Amanda: i could just send her the whole conversation<br />Dan Remolde: ouch<br />Dan Remolde: lol<br />Dan Remolde: you're mean<br />Amanda: you were paying attention to my earlier story<br />Amanda: lol<br />Amanda: i'm an asshole<br />Dan Remolde: actually I wouldn't really care<br />Amanda: i know<br />Dan Remolde: but I did say see looks like that type of chick<br />Amanda: lol<br />Dan Remolde: and that's a little mean<br />Dan Remolde: but I wasn't intending to be mean<br />Amanda: there are worse things you could have said<br />Dan Remolde: she could just prove it wrong<br />Dan Remolde: lol<br />Dan Remolde: you wouldn't send her the convo<br />Dan Remolde: because you talk about aff and stuff <br />Dan Remolde: lol<br />Amanda: <br />Dan Remolde: haha<br />Dan Remolde: glad I thought of it<br />Amanda: you assume she doesn't already know<br />Dan Remolde: she knows you're on there?<br />Amanda: maybe <br />Amanda: maybe she knows you're on there too<br />Amanda: <br />Dan Remolde: she's on there isn't she<br />Amanda: not as far as i know<br />Dan Remolde: oh<br />Dan Remolde: how would she know I'm on there then<br />Amanda: lol lucky guess?<br />Dan Remolde: obviously you told her<br />Dan Remolde: lol<br />Amanda: lol<br />Dan Remolde: how did that come up?<br />Dan Remolde: I don't care<br />Dan Remolde: I think it's funny<br />Amanda: it is funny<br />Amanda: yeah i told her<br />Dan Remolde: so I'm guessing you told her about it<br />Dan Remolde: then was like<br />Dan Remolde: oh dan is on there too<br />Dan Remolde: lol<br />Amanda: lol yep pretty much<br />Dan Remolde: what did she say<br />Amanda: not much<br />Amanda: actually i don't really remember<br />Dan Remolde: good job<br />Dan Remolde: how long has she known?<br />Amanda: weeks<br />Dan Remolde: geeze<br />Dan Remolde: so I haven't seen her since you've told her<br />Amanda: you might have<br />Dan Remolde: I was going to laugh if it was since she first started playing<br />Amanda: lol<br />Dan Remolde: I might have laughed?<br />Amanda: might have seen her since i told her<br />Amanda: in fact you probably did<br />Dan Remolde: last time I saw her was when I played that pick up game with that kristy's team<br />Dan Remolde: actually it was that last game before the playoffs<br />Dan Remolde: for wednesday league<br />Amanda: i'm pretty sure you've seen her since i told her<br />Amanda: it's not like she'd treat you any differently<br />Dan Remolde: I don't think she would either<br />Dan Remolde: it's not really a big deal for me<br />Dan Remolde: anyone else know?<br />Amanda: nope<br />Dan Remolde: lol<br />Amanda: at least i'm honest<br />Dan Remolde: yeah you are<br />Dan Remolde: you always are<br />Amanda: no reason not to be<br />Dan Remolde: I don't mind her because at least she knows how I am<br />Dan Remolde: so I'm guessing you told her that we hooked up<br />Amanda: yeah<br />Amanda: no one else knows that one <br />Dan Remolde: what did she say when you told her that?<br />Amanda: lol well i was drunk when i told her that<br />Dan Remolde: so you gave her the whole story I'm sure<br />Dan Remolde: lol<br />Amanda: yep<br />Amanda: including how i beat you in mini golf<br />Dan Remolde: I don't remember you beating me<br />Amanda: lol i do!<br />Dan Remolde: I remembered playing <br />Dan Remolde: I thought I won<br />Amanda: lol nope<br />Dan Remolde: then I remember hanging out at arrowhead<br />Amanda: i beat you by one stroke<br />Dan Remolde: then driving around and you rubbing my dick<br />Amanda: yep<br />Dan Remolde: then finding that playgroung making out rubbing on your titties while you jerked me off<br />Dan Remolde: lol<br />Dan Remolde: don't remember loosing<br />Amanda: i remember all those things too<br />Amanda: lol you blocked it out<br />Dan Remolde: maybe I did<br />Dan Remolde: lol<br />Dan Remolde: she ask about my dick at all?<br />Amanda: nope\<br />Dan Remolde: damn<br />Amanda: lol<br />Dan Remolde: how is a girl not going to be curious about the size of someones dick<br />Amanda: lol<br />Dan Remolde: if a friend of yours was telling you about a guy she hooked up you kinda knew wouldn't you ask her if he was big?<br />Amanda: maybe she's just not curious about yours<br />Dan Remolde: maybe not<br />Amanda: nah<br />Amanda: if she hooked up with him i probably wouldn't want him anyway<br />Dan Remolde: I'm not saying that you'd want him, but wouldn't you just be like<br />Dan Remolde: did he have a big dick?<br />Dan Remolde: just because you'd be curious about it<br />Amanda: why would i care if i didn't want the guy?<br />Dan Remolde: good point I guess<br />Dan Remolde: shit, maybe she doesn't care because you hooked up with me<br />Dan Remolde: I'm damaged goods<br />Dan Remolde: lol<br />Amanda: lol<br />Dan Remolde: does she use yahoo?<br />Amanda: dunno<br />Dan Remolde: how do you communicate with her?<br />Dan Remolde: when you're not hanging out<br />Amanda: lol<br />Dan Remolde: you're holding out on me aren't you<br />Dan Remolde: geeze<br />Amanda: totally<br />Dan Remolde: lol<br />Dan Remolde: why's that<br />Amanda: for fun<br />Dan Remolde: that's messed up<br />Dan Remolde: lol<br />Amanda: if you want her, get her number the next time you see her<br />Dan Remolde: .......<br />Dan Remolde: you're gay<br />Dan Remolde: lol<br />Amanda: lol<br />Amanda: not into girls, remember<br />Dan Remolde: yeah but if I decide not to play I won't be seeing her for a long time<br />Amanda: your loss<br />Dan Remolde: I don't like you anymore<br />Amanda: hahaha<br />Amanda: like you ever did<br />Dan Remolde: shut it<br />Amanda: make me<br />Amanda: <br />Dan Remolde: <br />Amanda: <br />Dan Remolde: anyway<br />Dan Remolde: so what are you up to tonight<br />Amanda: nothing<br />Dan Remolde: didn't find any dick for tonght?<br />Amanda: not really looking for any<br />Amanda: so no<br />Dan Remolde: is jake not playing this session too?<br />Amanda: he said he was gonna take a break<br />Dan Remolde: what a dick<br />Amanda: yep<br />Amanda: though earlier you were saying similar shit<br />Dan Remolde: well I'm kinda back and forth<br />Dan Remolde: I wanna play<br />Dan Remolde: and I don't<br />Dan Remolde: I wanna play to have fun and get exersize<br />Dan Remolde: but my body hates me<br />Amanda: that cause you're old<br />Dan Remolde: I am<br />Dan Remolde: duh<br />Dan Remolde: we'll see<br />Dan Remolde: if you're lucky I'll play<br />Amanda: yes because i've been so lucky with you so far<br />Dan Remolde: obviously you have no problem with getting lucky<br />Amanda: <br />Amanda: it's one of my many talents<br />Dan Remolde: haha<br />Amanda: though i don't think you've seen any of my talents yet<br />Dan Remolde: so that's why you don't wanna give me her name<br />Amanda: hahahaha<br />Amanda: oh you've got me all figured out<br />Dan Remolde: I know<br />Dan Remolde: I don't know why I didn't figure that out earlier<br />Amanda: cause you're slow?<br />Dan Remolde: not normally<br />Amanda: lol<br />Amanda: uh huh<br />Amanda: anyway, i think it's time for beer<br />Amanda: later<br />Dan Remolde: yep, gotta shower now<br />Dan Remolde: peace out<br /> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chokexonxregret:18225 2008-03-03T18:58:38Z 2008-03-03T18:58:38Z there is really no point to this other than it's hilarious. <br /><br /><a name="cutid1"></a><br />[12:42] BiG MoOsE24: whats up girl<br />[12:42] chokeXonXregret: hey<br />[12:42] BiG MoOsE24: how are you<br />[12:42] chokeXonXregret: pretty good<br />[12:42] chokeXonXregret: how are you?<br />[12:43] BiG MoOsE24: I'm good....just enjoying a nice day off courtesy of the philadewlphia police department<br />[12:43] chokeXonXregret: is there a story behind that?<br />[12:44] BiG MoOsE24: yeah, but i wouldn't want to bore you and myself.....<br />[12:44] chokeXonXregret: oh so it's not a fun story<br />[12:44] BiG MoOsE24: so whats new with you? <br />[12:44] chokeXonXregret: what law or laws did you break??<br />[12:44] chokeXonXregret: lol<br />[12:46] BiG MoOsE24: I got into a fist fight with an off-duty undercover cop. And it was never made clear he was a cop, but then i got all kinds of citations due to seem starting a fight with me<br />[12:46] chokeXonXregret: damn<br />[12:46] BiG MoOsE24: all good in the hood though<br />[12:46] BiG MoOsE24: so whats new with you<br />[12:46] chokeXonXregret: nothing much<br />[12:46] chokeXonXregret: no fist fights<br />[12:46] chokeXonXregret: i prefer kicking to punching<br />[12:46] BiG MoOsE24: enjoying the lavish life of working from home<br />[12:47] chokeXonXregret: of course!<br />[12:47] BiG MoOsE24: lol, women love kicking i have noticed<br />[12:47] chokeXonXregret: well i realize i probably can't punch all that hard<br />[12:48] chokeXonXregret: but soccer has taught me how to kick hard<br />[12:48] BiG MoOsE24: maybe, but a few soft punches in the same spot will hurt just the same<br />[12:48] BiG MoOsE24: haha, soccer.... i wish it was popular around here and they had older men leagues<br />[12:49] chokeXonXregret: i play in an adult coed league<br />[12:49] chokeXonXregret: i think they have men's one night a week<br />[12:49] BiG MoOsE24: well if your ever looking for a new teammate, let me know<br />[12:49] chokeXonXregret: we just started a new season<br />[12:50] chokeXonXregret: though if you have any interest in playing volleyball we're looking for more people<br />[12:50] BiG MoOsE24: thats cool, i start hockey in a few weeks, so that will keep me busy<br />[12:50] BiG MoOsE24: volleyball? truthfully, i am not good at all<br />[12:50] chokeXonXregret: haha me either<br />[12:51] BiG MoOsE24: you just like to get the chance to punch a ball<br />[12:52] chokeXonXregret: hahaha<br />[12:52] chokeXonXregret: my volleyball team didn't win a single game all season<br />[12:52] chokeXonXregret: we were terrible<br />[12:52] chokeXonXregret: but we had a lot of fun and went to the bar a lot<br />[12:52] BiG MoOsE24: wow....i guess it about the exercise then<br />[12:52] BiG MoOsE24: lol<br />[12:53] BiG MoOsE24: i hear ya...our hockey team is sponsored by a local bar, so we go play hockey and then get drunk as shit real cheap, can't beat it<br />[12:53] chokeXonXregret: are you playing through a league like philly sport and social?<br />[12:54] BiG MoOsE24: nah...it's run by the flyers facility...they have a league for guys 18-and older, sponsored by various businesses<br />[12:55] chokeXonXregret: ah<br />[12:55] chokeXonXregret: i play soccer for philly sport and social<br />[12:55] chokeXonXregret: and volleyball through manayunk sport and social<br />[12:55] BiG MoOsE24: oh, ok....never really heard of those systems or got involved<br />[12:56] chokeXonXregret: they're rec leagues<br />[12:56] chokeXonXregret: bunch of different sports<br />[12:56] BiG MoOsE24: oh thats cool<br />[12:57] BiG MoOsE24: pocketball?<br />[12:57] chokeXonXregret: what's pocketball?<br />[12:57] BiG MoOsE24: you never played it before<br />[12:58] chokeXonXregret: i don't know<br />[12:58] chokeXonXregret: explain it<br />[12:59] BiG MoOsE24: well in your case, you would stick your hands down a guys pants and dribble the balls. In my case, i would just dribble my own....haha<br />[13:03] BiG MoOsE24: it was a joke....but i thought u heard of the term pocketball before...so when i have to explain it, its not as funny<br /> <br />[13:03] chokeXonXregret: hahaha<br />[13:07] BiG MoOsE24: what you doing this afternoon<br />[13:09] chokeXonXregret: working<br />[13:10] chokeXonXregret: finishing my homework for school<br />[13:10] chokeXonXregret: then playing soccer<br />[13:10] BiG MoOsE24: stop it....<br />[13:11] BiG MoOsE24: your gonna put that all on hold...and we are gonna go grab some lunch and have a few drinks<br />[13:11] chokeXonXregret: i'm eating lunch right now<br />[13:12] BiG MoOsE24: you like playing hard to get<br /> <br />[13:12] chokeXonXregret: sweetie, i ain't playing<br />[13:12] BiG MoOsE24: LoL.....<br />[13:14] BiG MoOsE24: you are just that hard to get...how many guys you been with in your life<br />[13:14] chokeXonXregret: dating wise or sex?<br />[13:14] chokeXonXregret: lol<br />[13:14] BiG MoOsE24: sex<br />[13:14] chokeXonXregret: 12<br />[13:14] BiG MoOsE24: u positive<br />[13:15] chokeXonXregret: positive?<br />[13:15] BiG MoOsE24: yeah, like sure about the number<br />[13:15] chokeXonXregret: yep<br />[13:15] BiG MoOsE24: your lying<br />[13:16] chokeXonXregret: oh you're right i meant 312<br />[13:16] chokeXonXregret: lol<br />[13:16] BiG MoOsE24: no, no, no...... I mean your on the kinky personal web sites and talk a good game, but act like a virgin<br />[13:17] chokeXonXregret: oh i'm not virgin<br />[13:17] BiG MoOsE24: wasn't even sure if u knew what a real life cock looked like.<br />[13:17] chokeXonXregret: hahahaha<br />[13:17] chokeXonXregret: oh i've seen my share<br />[13:18] BiG MoOsE24: right<br /> <br />[13:18] chokeXonXregret: haha you really don't believe me, do you?<br />[13:21] BiG MoOsE24: i think you go on this sites because it is erotic and a fantasy, but are probably very prudish and haven't done much at all in your life. and enjoy chatting with guys, but no matter what they look like, extremely hot or ugly, you turn them down because you are nervous<br />[13:21] chokeXonXregret: wow you are completely off<br />[13:21] chokeXonXregret: that is the most amazing attribution i've ever heard<br />[13:22] chokeXonXregret: i've fucked guys i've met on alt and aff<br />[13:23] chokeXonXregret: hell i even dated one of those guys for like a year<br />[13:23] BiG MoOsE24: why u getting so offended? <br />[13:23] chokeXonXregret: i realize it's difficult to read my emotions through IM, but trust me i'm not offended<br />[13:24] chokeXonXregret: i think you're just trying to save your self esteem since i turned you down<br />[13:24] chokeXonXregret: convincing yourself that i do that to everyone to make you feel better<br />[13:26] BiG MoOsE24: haha, i have alot of self-esteem, and it is barely ever hurt. I pick up women on a daily basis and have sex frequently with varities of women.<br />[13:26] BiG MoOsE24: i don't have to feel better, you are not the first and definitely not the last woman to ever say no to me<br />[13:27] chokeXonXregret: ok<br />[13:27] chokeXonXregret: to be honest, i'm glad you're rather unaffected by this. i hate to hurt people's feelings<br />[13:27] BiG MoOsE24: but if you are so hip to the game as you and i both think you are, then you would know the real reason to why i say those things<br />[13:28] chokeXonXregret: i'd like to hear your take on it<br />[13:30] BiG MoOsE24: guys will always work and try harder for the ones that turn them down. Its all fine and dandy when i girl just succumbs to charm or looks very easily. But it is an empty victory. Men are hunter/gatherers. We enjoy the hunt, the difficulty, the real honor in conquering something that wouldn't give us the time of day.<br /> <br />[13:31] BiG MoOsE24: So a smart male will play mind games and all sorts of things, not because he is hurt, but that u (in this case) would be a great victory<br />[13:32] chokeXonXregret: lol that's assuming men are smart<br />[13:33] BiG MoOsE24: yeah, you are right. Most aren't clever enough. The just usually tuck their tail between their legs and go on to the next super easy target to build their confidence up. <br />[13:33] BiG MoOsE24: But i am not like that, and that is why i still try<br />[13:34] chokeXonXregret: i actually agree that men like the chase<br />[13:34] chokeXonXregret: i would even go so far to suggest that women like the chase as well<br />[13:34] chokeXonXregret: maybe it's just a simple as wanting something you can't have<br />[13:34] BiG MoOsE24: It makes it more intense the chase<br />[13:35] chokeXonXregret: maybe it's all cognitive dissonance in the end<br />[13:35] chokeXonXregret: you think because you put so much effort into someone that you really like them<br />[13:35] BiG MoOsE24: everybody wants what they can't have....thats nature<br />[13:36] chokeXonXregret: i don't disagree<br />[13:36] chokeXonXregret: so what's this have to do with me being a prude?<br />[13:36] chokeXonXregret: lol<br />[13:37] BiG MoOsE24: lol, mind games<br />[13:37] chokeXonXregret: you still have that all wrong<br />[13:37] chokeXonXregret: you assume i put far more thought into this than i really do<br />[13:38] BiG MoOsE24: alot of women are so bent on proving that they aren't prides that they will do anything to prove to you that they are not<br /> <br />[13:38] BiG MoOsE24: i know women don't put all this thought into anything<br />[13:38] BiG MoOsE24: it's as easy as this, if u are attracted or not....black and white<br />[13:39] BiG MoOsE24: but men gotta do all the thinking to get a womens attention......<br />[13:40] chokeXonXregret: so you, with your vast amount of knowledge about women, why are you single?<br />[13:41] BiG MoOsE24: because who wants to be tied down?<br />[13:41] BiG MoOsE24: and have someone want to know my every move<br />[13:43] chokeXonXregret: hahahaha<br />[13:43] BiG MoOsE24: why u single if it is so simple? lol<br />[13:43] chokeXonXregret: can't find anyone i like<br />[13:44] BiG MoOsE24: not that simple then<br />[13:45] chokeXonXregret: everything is simple<br />[13:45] BiG MoOsE24: it is<br /> <br />[13:46] chokeXonXregret: anything else you would to say?<br />[13:47] BiG MoOsE24: nah.....<br />[13:47] chokeXonXregret: enjoy your day off then<br />[13:48] BiG MoOsE24: ok, u too<br /> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chokexonxregret:18099 2008-02-17T07:08:54Z 2008-02-17T07:08:54Z i feel like writing. and since no one reads this anymore, i figure what the hell. <br /><br />i've been feeling rather lonely lately. i'm a very social person and need to have people around. work makes it difficult. now that i work entirely from home i'm stuck inside all day with no one around. and come 5pm all i want to do is get out of my apartment. that's part of the reason that i went back to school. though that is not a good outlet for making new friends. pretty much everyone in my classes are older than me and married with families and other obligations. so i started to playing soccer. and while i like the people i play soccer with, they are not really go out drinking or hang out outside of soccer kind of people. which is why i started playing volleyball. i do like my volleyball team. we haven't won a game yet but always go to the bar. i seem to have trouble making new friends. i'm not sure what the issue is really. just wish i had some insight into that.<br /><br />in addition to the lack of friends, i can't find a guy that i'm interested in. or the guys i find that i'm interested in aren't interested in me. makes me want to give up on men and become the crazy cat lady. i really miss what i had with matty. i haven't found anyone quite like him. it's lonely nights like this where i just wish i was lying in bed cuddling with me. his big strong arms wrapped around me. <br /><br />it all goes back to belongingness theory. everything goes back to psychology.